OPROSTI

Spoznao sam to još jučer

Bila si sa mnom nametljiva- u mislima

u slikama, u snovima noću

Nisam volio tebe- već statuu

Izlivenu u žurbi, onako serijski

Danas ne znam ima li ljubavi u meni

Jel je ikad bilo

u utrobi ovoj teškoj, olovnoj

Čujem da me još voliš

pričaju mi vjetrovi o našoj ljubavi

Kako je to bilo, ja se ne sjećam

Amnezija- u očima- led

bez boli- samo vakuum

Soba mi se smanjuje, zidovi stišću

bespomoćno tražim izlaz

Iz kartonske kutije od cipela

Jel prošla oluja?

Polako, oprezno dižem poklopac;

iz školjke se iskotrlja biser

i- nestaje u pijesku

tren prije no što val ispere obalu

solju nesjećanja

Bože, zar je tako dugo...

toliko je prošlo?!

Ne mislim, ne želim, ne sjećam se više

Ne pišem, ne govorim

Ne brojim dane u kalendaru

Ne živim

Smijem se...


FORGIVE ME

I've realized that as yet yesterday

You were with me meddlesome- in thoughts

in pictures, in dreams at night

I didn’t love you- I loved a statue

Molten in a hurry, just like that, serially

 

Today I don’t know if there is any love in me

If it there ever was

in this interior heavy, made of lead

I hear you still love me

winds are telling to me a story of our love

 

How it was, I don’t remember

Amnesia- in eyes- ice

no pain- just vacuum

 

My room is shrinking, walls closing in

I’m helplessly looking for the exit

Out of the shoe card-board box

Has the storm passed?

Slowly, carefully I’m lifting the top cover;

out of the shell rolls out the pearl

and- disappears in sand

the moment before a wave washes the shore

with the salt of oblivion

 

Oh, God, has it been that long…

that much passed?!

I don’t think, don’t wish, don’t remember any more

Don’t write, don’t speak

Don't count the days in calendar

Don’t live

 

I laugh…